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(no subject) [Nov. 18th, 2009|07:24 pm]
[Current Mood | drained]

do you know what? working at resorts world rrly rrly makes you grow horizontally! its not becos of the food is good, but becos i've been eating and sitting everyday. i am seeing alot more meat forming infront of my belly, more meat surrounding my arms, small thighs became bigger(perhaps cos im in heels everyday).. though yes i like meaty and chubby ppl, but i dont dont dont like myself being like that! ): i am gonna gym and swim more regularly now!!! and i find myself being hungry every single minute........................

gonna take dinner now. bye
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(no subject) [Nov. 14th, 2009|03:51 pm]
[Current Mood | blank]

being the very ridiculous me, i cried again after reading the same story for the third time.

If I had one of the abilities of God, I would have chosen to relive my past, and slowly,
tenderly, treasuring every single hour, minutes and second with you. Every single moment
with you.


"In Secondary Three, I chose Joanna Fung, and I'll make her my date forever."

I wanna date Low Kay Hwa now HAHAHAHA
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(no subject) [Nov. 13th, 2009|11:47 pm]
Its friday today again! ssrlt tgif ok omggggg.. im so mentally drained out from work. :/ kk wait i go shit first... i've decided not to cos i wanna watch perfect cut 2. hahahah ok so anw.. work this week was pretty alright, cos time flies pretty quickly and poof! its friday today again. rrly luv the weekend. so basically.. what i've been today for the past few days was um training, watching shrek & madagascar and so on. uss training was um.. not quite bad. falling asleep for every minute of the time at the first part before break. and after break, i kept telling myself 'im not gonna sleep im not gonna sleep' but sometimes my eyelids still kiss each other la hahah.

anw i answered phone calls yesterday already! i was so afraid that i might say 'good afternoon asa holiday' you know! but thank god i didnt...

had nyny with mel & sam today! omg man, we had a feast la! we each ordered a main course, then a ny fifth avenue platter then we shared a dessert together. damn filling la omg hahah. talked a lot over the dinner too. im so tired now. i wanna sleep, but i cant. how i wish my hair dries like 1 minute after i finish bathing...

bye





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(no subject) [Nov. 10th, 2009|09:31 pm]
[Current Mood | bored]

this is damn shitty. dad and i went to the doctor's for h1n1 jab and its giving me headache and serious numbness in my right hand now. horribleeeeeeeee. gonna bathe and go to bed earlier today. going over to sentosa tmrw for some uss thing which i already forgot what is it about hahahahahah.

dad asked me to invite my friends over for bro's bday.. like weird, who to invite? i dont wanna sit at one corner and lepak myself lor. and good day, its a thursday! who wants to come over for party on a thursday? thats a pretty funny day to hold a party lol
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(no subject) [Oct. 29th, 2009|11:50 pm]
[Current Mood | bitchy]

you just got to admit that no matter how awesome your life is, there are bound to be some fucked up people hanging around you. its fucking irritating. seriously like whats wrong with you? is it becos of the age gap? i prolly thinks so. if you fucking doubt everybody that is trying to earn your fucking money then fucking stay at home and not go anywhere. i'll see where you get your daily needs from. do you go to the market and ask the aunty that sells egg where are the eggs from? if the aunty says 'oh it came from malaysia' will you still buy it or go for a better grade? i mean given such a situation, do you think you get to choose? like hello?! you're not very well to do, and you're talking bout the quality with me. you pay what you get. SIMPLE. and if your product happens to be of a slightly better quality, count youself lucky. count yourself FUCKING LUCKY. you just dont understand the younger generation babe.

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(no subject) [Oct. 29th, 2009|01:05 pm]
i've everything & anything you've ever wished for.

so, who is envying who now?
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(no subject) [Oct. 28th, 2009|12:50 pm]



It's always the obvious traits of yours that everyone notices but only the one who loves you knows all your little weird habits and secrets.

x,x
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(no subject) [Oct. 28th, 2009|12:33 am]
i hope emails will keep rolling in for [info]ohjuulie ! :)



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(no subject) [Oct. 27th, 2009|12:09 pm]
i am craving for kfc winglet. i dont know what to do at home. i want to go out. i want to go shopping. i want to do so much things. i dont wanna work. ):

sometimes i think im too ridiculous. i can watch the same movie for 3 times and still cry over the same reason. think im lame or what.....

[info]ohjuulie for pretty shoes & bags!!! :)



i watched the night turn light blue, its not the same without you. Beautiful

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(no subject) [Oct. 26th, 2009|12:56 am]
[Current Mood | bored]

Im gonna ban mcd for 1 year. I AM NEVER GONNA TOUCH MCD FOR 1 YEAR!!! i ate mcd today, AGAIN!!! this is so ridiculous. i think mcd can expand people's stomach. i cant even finish a normal meal back then... and nowadays.. i finished everything and even upsized it. i am really banning mcd for 1 year. no joke.

i sold my fuji today! im gonna buy a canon 300d! its kinda old but then the reviews are all damn good ^^ the price is reasonable too! so reasonable that i love it :)
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(no subject) [Oct. 24th, 2009|11:37 pm]
[Current Mood | bored]

think im weird or what. i actually love receiving emails. zzz  my bro is in love with the mcdonalds monopoly thing. and crap, he's like asking me to eat mcd everyday. no kidding. i ate mcd for today and ysd already. AND I DONT RRLY LIKE MCD COS THE CHOICES ARE ALL SO LIMITED!!! and its so expensive and unhealthy! dont know why do ppl like such food. zzzzzz

anw i went karaoke today!!! and i literally screamed at the top of my voice! one word, shiok! i haven been singing for idk how long already..... but today's session was definitely the besttttt!! hahah cos godma and the two animals has been nice to me! knowing that i know nuts about all the new chinese songs, they allowed and sang with me all the old songs. and whoohoooo!!! I GOT HIGH WHILE SINGING YOU BELONG WITH ME AND WAKING UP IN VEGAS TODAY!! i really screamed!!! i nearly jump and dance around hahahahahahahah

so today was godma's birthday celebration!! had ba kut teh at some woodlands hawker centre for lunch. i think its damn powerful. cos i was freaking full before i met them, even told cindy that im not gonna eat. and guess what.. godpa went to order and ordered my share!!! so i had no choice but to eat it. walaooo.. and who knows i ate so much lor! DAMN NICE and the more i ate, the hungrier i got! today is the first time that i tried zhu jiao. i dont know what is that in ang moh hahahah and wa seh the meat is damn tender! fu yooooooo can salivate now ah i tell you! and the cai wei! THE BEST AH!!! i think i finished the bowl of it! and a super big pot of pai ku with lots of pig intestine inside. totally shiok to the maxxxxxxxx. cindy and i bought a small cake to surprise godma today! and she seemed so surprised!! :D totally achieved our goal hahahahahahah

today is a happy day ^^ but idk why i like to act hao lian when im alone zzz my face is like YOU OWE ME 1 MILLION!! WHEN ARE YOU GOING TO RETURN ME!! then one uncle was standing behind me while im buying my standard ticket. kns my coins kept rejecting!!! and he stood behind me like buay song! then i turn back i also buay song! cos he very smelly! and see his face lagi buay song.... so i give him my buay song face and walked away HAHAHAHAH he also paiseh la! donno why to use the machine. noob! then came this ah neh kept staring at me! i diaoed him and walked away. heng he didnt came after me with a chopper or push me down the mrt track!

i think i very weird. i want to bathe but stayed online just to see if there is any new emails................... zzz
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(no subject) [Oct. 23rd, 2009|02:41 pm]
[Current Mood | calm]

sometimes i wonder have i made the wrong choice? by joining tmis... i dont exactly know why am i still staying in the tourism line when i clearly know that i am totally not interested in it. prolly becos i want to get my diploma fast. well thats really 1 reason.. and another is that i dont want to waste time anymore. but thinking back.. its not really a wrong thing to join tmis. at least i've a diploma cert now and i can concentrate on working and plan what i really want to do 2 years later. and i clearly know that its gonna be studying, just that im not sure if im gonna take another diploma or go straight to degree. one of the thing that i think god has given me right is that im still young. its ok to make mistakes, its ok to fall. as long as you learn from your mistake and learn to get up, everything would be fine after that :)
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(no subject) [Oct. 20th, 2009|12:45 am]
[Current Mood | bouncy]

today i fainted for the first time in my 18 years of life. at first i saw stars, and i told nadiah that im feeling damn giddy but didnt really paid much attention towards it cos yea you know its only common to see stars here and there. then i sat at the bus stop waiting for my dad. but then i decided that i should just go cos im feeling nauseous and it wouldnt be good if i vomited at the bus stop. so i stood up and went off. who knows.. i saweven  more stars! and this time i wasnt walking straight. i even knocked into some bloody metal pillar which is quite painful at that point of time but not now anymore. and after that.. i walked like i was blading in line. then i finally couldnt take it and walked to a pillar, wanted to squat down but i fall down instead. my eyes were close, feeling damn horrible. and just in time.. someone came! which i self pro-claim is my future husband. -.- but anyway.. it just feels like he saved me from dying! cos i really THOUGHT I WAS DYING. and then he came up to me and ask 'are you ok?' and i replied 'im ok' faintly. i could see him standing there like wanting to help me up but didnt dared to. hahah and he only left when he made sure someone is here with me. im like so impressed and touched by this little gesture. but i didnt get to thank him. i didnt get to know his name from his name tag(he's in his army uniform)! i really really want to know who this person is and thank him in person. i know this is just the littlest thing people will and can do when some one has fainted there. but seriously, i've never experience such 'fainting' experience before, and whats more is that i thought i was dying. of cos i regard him as my saviour. -.- so serious that i think i can marry him right away..... i know im lame la k. he's just like a knight.. oh maybe like romeo! just that he's lack of a silver suite and a white horse.

I KNOW IM LAME AND THIS IS SOMETHING THAT WOULDNT HAPPEN EVEN IN A GAZILLON YEARS... but just let me dream k? cos i rrly rrly want to meet this person again ):

i would really marry him if i can. i've a feeling that i'd meet him again! ^^

i was so scared when my mom brought me to the doctor just now...... i thought the doctor might find something strange in me and say that i've some alien illness. i was even more afraid to hear him say i've high blood pressure/high cholesterol/low sugar level. kns so i was worrying for nothing la. HAHAHAH I AM FINE NOW!

but i still felt a little faint and weak today zzz

OK BYE
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(no subject) [Oct. 19th, 2009|11:48 am]
[Current Mood | bored]

lifehasbeensomundanerecently.......................

sianz. how i wished im overseas during my every free time. who cares if its only malaysia. at least im not standing on singapore's ground. not that i dislike sgp.. its the feeling.. zzzz anw i am not schooling and working anymore after this wednesday! and it seems so far away....... like the more i want it to come, the longer i've to wait. and it.. SUCKS

anw i've a full break for a week and poom, back to work! and im so excited bout it!! :D

sigh but now, back to school

SIAN

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(no subject) [Oct. 17th, 2009|04:12 am]
[Current Mood |awake]

i told you

but you thought that im kidding
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(no subject) [Oct. 12th, 2009|10:06 pm]
HELLO!!!!!!!! I AM BACK FROM LANGKAWI!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE THAT PLACE!

Its so laid back! i ate a lot! had a lot of fun too!! whee and i drove a car for a first time! its so damn bloody fun! im gonna take my license soon! :D anywayyyy we played banana boat and poor donna got her eye injured cos of *. and it turned blue black. so poor thing right. tsk tsk! anw i caught tusnami over there too!! its damn bloody nice! its funny, sad & touching ): and got cute cute LOL! ITS A MUST WATCH!!!!!!

anw i signed the letter of appointment from resorts world. call centre! sitting inside the office and kiao ka. work when there's only call. LOL NO LA KIDDING ONLY. its a 4 days work week, rotating shift and i love the benefits and compensations. the pay is not too bad too! :)

ok damn tired

BYE
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(no subject) [Oct. 9th, 2009|10:45 pm]
[Current Mood | bored]

a friend of mine got into silkair :) so happy for her. hahah i didnt knew it directly through her. i only came across the news through another friend of mine and her fb. how unpredictable can life get.. im not jealous over it. im just truly happy for her :) i remembered how much i wanted to become a cabin crew of qatar or emiriates, but have given up that thought cos well.. though it pays well but im never gonna live in saudi arabia without my family. how lonely can life get when you're alone in another country? though yes its an experience. but im sorry, im never that brave to be alone. whos gonna be there for you when you ever need someone? and haha we all know how 'nice' air stewardess are... i'll not rule out the possiblities of not joining emiriates though, cos we never know what might happen in the near future. anyway i still wish my friend all the best in her career! :)

and a piece of good news. resort world offered me the job. i should just gladly accept it. who knows i might like the job and still continue after six months. AND GOD I AM THE PIONEER BATCH OKAYXZS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! dont pray pray.

sigh. AND I AM LIKE ANY REGULAR WORKING ADULT TO BE SOON ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ
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(no subject) [Oct. 9th, 2009|10:32 pm]
[Current Mood | blank]

wild wild wet was great. caught up with juliana on wednesday and laughed like mad. and um.. totally faced up to the things which i dared not even think at all in the past. i feel so muchhhh better now. at least not so bad.

yay going to langkawi tomorrow! so bloody excited. cant wait to do some duty free shopping over there ^^
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(no subject) [Oct. 3rd, 2009|11:27 pm]
[Current Mood | disappointed]

here's a story of someone whom was once so close to me.

we met last year. it was awkward at first, but then we kinda clicked right away cos we're the same kind. and we became closer. cos we lived near to each other, met to school together, went home together, attend the same cca and etc... i liked you so much. really really took you as a good friend of mine. someone whom i can pour all my unhappiness to. i thought we'd remain the same, or even better. i really really thought so... remember the happy times together? remember the times that we got scolded together? remember everything? remember our dear friend lim chia wen who is in army now? do you even remember everything that happened before? well it seemes to me that you dont. so much of telling us how much you misses us.. and this is what we get from you? promise. how much does your fucking promises worth? do you know why am i so upset? becos its you, becos you still mattered to me, becos i rrly rrly still take you as my friend, becos i rrly rrly want you back with us, becos i rrly rrly miss you. i want to see actions, i dont want to hear only words honey. im so sick of your stupid excuses. and this time you did something even more hurtful. you totally ignored us. admit it, you DID. and im so disappointed in you. thats it, this is it. im not gonna ask you out anymore.

im writing this becos i hope you'll see it and hope you'd do something bout it.

utterly disapointed

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(no subject) [Oct. 3rd, 2009|01:32 am]
[Current Mood | tired]

people experience hunger every single day. and here i am, wasting food away. so ashamed of myself. poor kids. i remembered myself as a really chubby kid when i was young.. i had food, water, everything... i bathed in tap water. but kids in africa? i saw them in little flesh, bones already popping out of their flesh in every part of their bodies. they ate left over food from the bin, from the floor. they drank urine of the animal, they bathed using the urine of the animal... babies.. they're so so so so soooooooo skinny. sometimes its really the littlest thing that touches my heart. they may be poor, but all they every wanted was a roof over their heads, at least get to eat something daily and to go to school. why cant we be like them? to be always contented with things that they have and thank god for it? i dont exactly know what im driving at.


anyway read this...

I am a mother of three (ages 14, 12, 3) and have recently completed my college degree.
The last class I had to take was Sociology. The teacher was absolutely inspiring with the qualities that I wish every human being had been graced with.

Her last project of the term was called, 'Smile.'

The class was asked to go out and smile at three people and document their reactions.
I am a very friendly person and always smile at everyone and say hello anyway. So, I thought this would be a piece of cake, literally.
Soon after we were assigned the project, my husband, youngest son, and I went out to McDonald's one crisp March morning. It was just our way of sharing special playtime with our son.
We were standing in line, waiting to be served, when all of a sudden everyone around us began to back away, and then even my husband did. I did not move an inch.... an overwhelming feeling of panic welled up inside of me as I turned to see why they had moved. As I turned around I smelled a horrible 'dirty body' smell, and there standing behind me were two poor homeless men.

As I looked down at the short gentleman, close to me, he was 'smiling' His beautiful sky blue eyes were full of God's Light as he searched for acceptance. He said, 'Good day' as he counted the few coins he had been clutching. The second man fumbled with his hands as he stood behind his friend. I realized the second man was mentally challenged and the blue-eyed gentleman was his salvation.
I held my tears as I stood there with them. The young lady at the counter asked him what they wanted. He said, 'Coffee is all Miss' because that was all they could afford. (If they wanted to sit in the restaurant and warm up, they had to buy something. He just wanted to be warm).

Then I really felt it - the compulsion was so great I almost reached out and embraced the little man with the blue eyes. That is when I noticed all eyes in the restaurant were set on me, judging my every action.

I smiled and asked the young lady behind the counter to give me two more breakfast meals on a separate tray. I then walked around the corner to the table that the men had chosen as a resting spot. I put the tray on the table and laid my hand on the blue-eyed gentleman's cold hand. He looked up at me, with tears in his eyes, and said, 'Thank you.' I leaned over, began to pat his hand and said, 'I did not do this for you. God is here working through me to give you hope.
I started to cry as I walked away to join my husband and son. When I sat down my husband smiled at me and said, 'That is why God gave you to me, Honey, to give me hope..' We held hands for a moment and at that time, we knew that only because of the Grace that we had been given were we able to give. We are not church goers, but we are believers. That day showed me the pure Light of God's sweet love.

I returned to college, on the last evening of class, with this story in hand. I turned in 'my project' and the instructor read it.. Then she looked up at me and said, 'Can I share this?' I slowly nodded as she got the attention of the class.

She began to read and that is when I knew that we as human beings and being part of God share this need to heal people and to be healed. In my own way I had touched the people at McDonald's, my son,the instructor, and every soul that shared the classroom on the last night I spent as a college student. I graduated with one of the biggest lessons I would ever learn:


UNCONDITIONAL ACCEPTANCE.
 
Much love and compassion is sent to each and every person who may read this and learn how to

 


i love love love this story. there's another one, but i cant find it anywhere on the net. its from chicken soup and its about a boy who died during war.

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